Today is the day; or, rather, today was the day. It was supposed to be the day, but alas it was not meant to be. Why?
I’m still here and the only reason is because I sought help. Yay me! or is it? Many think it’s great and so so brave to speak up and seek help and, wow, it’s all over now, we can all start to heal. Well, absolutely not.
Nothing’s changed. Am I gonna thank anyone for me still having to suffer? Absolutely not. I still have the same issues, still feel the same, still want to die.. just less opportunity now that I was stupid enough to speak up. Now, I’m being watched, being checked on regularly.
The question is why did I speak up? I was afraid I was actually gonna go through with it. But if I wanted to go, why be afraid? I don’t know! Was I really serious about doing it if I warned people beforehand? We’ll never know.
What I can categorically say is I have no desire whatsoever to be here anymore.
I know how you feel Dougal but you have no idea how much you mean to your YouTube viewers. It would be hard to be ‘you’ and make online friends and know they aren’t haters for the ifam etc but we all care very much and won’t want you to go anywhere. I don’t want anyone to know who I am so the name will be different here.
After last night could anyone who knows Raccoon personally let me and his other supporters know if he is still with us please
I apologise for leaving the last comment. After reading that you planned to kill yourself on the 28th and the videos last night culminating in your channel being deleted, I actually thought you’d done it
So I’m relieved to see you back, hope you’re ok and I promise not to panic again
We love you, Dougal. You are not alone. The world needs you. You are a survivor. You are so talented. This is just 24 hours. Anytime you feel bad, remember this. You deserve to be here. Debs